31st December 2005
The annual post for the last day of 2005 and this post;
well i hope this post will be a blast and a summarised for
what ive done for this whole of 365 days. The negative
part of me would say "2005 sucks big tyme"
But somehow the gd side of me will say
"well...at least i got her" Well gona face another 403.5
workings days in the SAF as a storeman.
(amazing eh how i really calculated my working days
excluding saturday and sunday....) So 403.5 it will be.
Bleargh....after every 100 days,i will celebrate;sort of....
Sometimes when im really bored infront of the computer
n i got nothing much to type and when this part come,i be
bitching like-nobody business bout the certain bad factor of
the goverment of Singapore. Well maybe not today then.
Be typing and bitching bout something else i guess. Its my
blog anyway and i type any shits dat is interesting and hope
it will invite all u shitty macaroni-dip-arse ppl to haf fun
reading....haha...
So tell me, do u considered urself to be one of those
Singaporean Stereo type citizen?? If so,bad for you
cos im gonna fuck u up real gd in this post.
(bear in mind the word "stereo")
Since the day our country being influence in the fast
trending nation and incomparable hi-tech stuff selling fast
in our homeland (homeland?!? bleargh),our young citizens
or shd i say our damn Singaporean teenagers are becoming
more selfish and rude in many ways of life.
Mayb they r too young,i wuz young and gullible once,but
at this fast going rate of high education and "Kind"
propaganda,one wld expect such ppl and attitude wld be
diminished. But no..its becoming worst. And the worst is
yet to come....
BAck then in ITE,on my way to sch inside the bus,sitting,
Saw this pregnant lady boarding the bus. And since my bus is
a bus destination to Tamp ITE and Temasek Poly,most of
the passengers are students my age. Everybody around her
wuz like doing their own damn business.
Listening MP3, reading textbook (cmon,exam still far lah idiot),
look blindly outside the window and even some of them just
blabbered non-stop wif their frens...ignoring that lady.
Me?? well i wuz all the way back of the seat of the bus.
Bus crowded,she infront...takkan nak pekik dari belakang kan,
"Miss...miss....here got seat..come quick" while wavering my hand
non-stop. (dat be a sight)
But nvr do that...sakit hati rasa tau when i saw such scenario.
The burden wuz lifted up as soon as this fine old unlce (mid 40s)
gave his seat to her. Man....that wuz our future generation of
Singaporean. Bahh...fuck it lah...
Here is another Scenario,
those typical ask-for-donation charity kind of thingy.
Well kesian eh dia org,walk ard town,up and down,here
and there ask for donation. Orchard Road and when one
speak about Orchard Road this is where our national
youngster be spending their time on weekend. This volunteer
pulak,sanggup sacrifices their time,instead of enjoying they
are working for charity. Cld it be for some Red Cross Charity,
Yellow Ribbon or so and so but stil sacrifice they have.
And our stereotype teenagers wld like walk past them and
act mcm takde nuting happen.... my gawd...wat a sight.
However those who donated wld be those married dude or
some well off person concerning bout them.
Me?? Well, at this time i wld like take my wallet out and
see if got $$$...biasalah,since im a bloody NSF,my pay
wuz like $1.70 per hours. (amazing eh,i calculate dat too)
Klau got money...more than $2 i wld donate like a dollar at
least. If no money,less than $2 in my pocket,i wld just
take a 20cent or any coins yg ade and give em.
Better give than neber rite? Rite!!! and klau betol2
takde duit kan...i wld just be like....
"why am i here in e 1st place at Orchard if i got no $$$"
So usually got money lah....
And my point is,what make our young singaporean becoming
so selfish and hungry for $$$, pride and self-respect???
Is it the goverment in which always make us kluarkan duit?
(i tink so..for me lah....) or is it the way they have been
brought up?? or mayb they havent really see the bigger
picture in which everyone fits in where we want.
If it is truly the goverment,we shd make them listen.
The goverment will ignore one mouth and sue that guy,but
if there is many mouth what can they do?
(most to most Riot Squad ah dia org panggil..sial nye olang)
If is truly their parents,too bad loh...no one teach their
bloody parents parent. Too bad lah,maybe their lifestyle
were cultivated at home wif such attitude til they bring
it to the outside world. Well that is so the Negativity!!!
Sometimes the sight just hurt. Hurt deep but never bring
a scar to me. Im a strong man sumhow. I control my life
and wont never let fate control it. I remember this saying
from a book; "Dun ask what the leader can do for u,but what
u can do for the leader"
Well it is sumhow a good give morale up nye phrase.
But if u apply this to our SIngaporean...well it wont fit.
I never say i hate the Goverment,i just hate the System
of our country. That is 2 diff thing. Now u see my point??
See How the ruling and system of the goverment control the
life of our young Stereotype citizen? Everything counts
in this world and nuting is free u noe. Causes and Effects.
We turn out to be selfish and all the bad negativity exists in us.
Better called our self Sin-gapore. As in country of Sinners
So seriously,how is 2005?
Well seriously speaking...no comment. Just lead and follow
the life in my shoe and u understand. Im a Mat once,im
a punk once,im a gangster once,im a heart breaker once.
Ive been there, done that and stil im so naive at some
things and stuff. Our phase of learning as a human being is
neverending. (quote from the Quran)
K lah, ppl wana go now...see u nxt year and happy living the
new years eve and the celebration. Wana mit my deary at work.
Remember,be happy of who u are and what u have.
Ur life is determined by you,not some stupid upper power.
-Logging off-Sir Azmi-
23rd December 2005
Few more days to 2006 which means 1 year and 6 more
months left to survive a boring Army Life.
Back in ITE ,always thought dat i cld have a bright
and exciting army life. Thought dat i could be a fighting
fit infantry or some guardsman serving the SAF wth pride.
Well dat only happened during BMT......
No matter how fit u are or how smart ur common sense is,
the SAF nowadays rely on better qualification of urs.
So if u wan a high chance of getting into Combat Vocation, u
haf to have a qualification of Diploma or above.
Only a few lucky peepz who is N, O level, ITE grad has
the oppurnities to experienced Combat Voc.
Sumore,they look at ur skin and race too....how more
biase can the SAF be???
This truly change my perspective view of the army.
Army Sucks..truly it is!!!! SAF = Serve And FuckOFF!!!
Read some news polls on the Internet regarding the Politics
and the Managing Goverment of Singapore. This polls were given
out to Singaporean who stayed Overseas.
After reviewing those votes and so,many of them hate the Singapore
System. Basically everything from the laws (well Singapore law is
more strict than those around the world. Fact), ruling, Parliament Board
and even the Military issue which i wld say is kinda sucky to the brim of
of my fuck-this-shit-whore-house country.
If i got the money,i wld haf stayed Overseas and be a PR of dat country.
Lets say the States, where everyone is open minded and friendly.
Not like Singapore....we are paid to be friendly. Not being friendly from
the heart and dat is a big No No.
Or better, Malaysia, sebelah je. Thou they have poor goverment bodies,
they are now recuperating and slowly improving. Sumore the govt treat
everyone equally.
Not like SIngapore..... the indirectly hidden racist agenda in this country.
We Singaporean say, Unity, Racial Harmony, Racial Commitment and the
list to promote racial among us. Well it works but only work there and die
there till theres another campaign of racial harmony to remind SIngapore
again and again. If u still in doubt, just read the Classified Ads on JOb recruit.
It says alot about the hidden agenda of races.
One read a Job class ad and u will always find this common phrase.
"Able to Speak Fluent English Or Mandarin"
"Mandarin speaking background is a must"
So wats up wif all that shit if job that they post in the newspaper
only want chinese and those mandarin ppl???
Well i dont wana pursue on this racial thing further. Wait the govt
found out bout my blog and charge me.
Ckit ckit mau charge..ckit ckit mau charge.....
dats how the Singapore Govt is lah.... So bloody weird Country.
U guys know that DJ X'Ho from Lush Radio Station.
He is one of those rebel singaporean who hate the System.
He had a damn Master Degree in Socialogy and yet he prefer to
pursue his dream as a DJ and a promising punk artist. He has left
his mark and i truly respect that. Rebel wif a cause.....
Well if i haf the chance and the money and the talent....
i would leave this country for a while and go exploring and
discover other country out there. Like Tibet, France, India,
England and the States of course.
ANyway think positive and happy and i will survive in this
stereotical money minded country. Last nite went out to
mit Lizzy pat her workplace after finishing my Bike Prac.
Well i think this is the fastest Prac rather than back in CDC.
SSDC now and 3 weeks and now im oreadi in Prac 3.
Oh well..pelan2 kayuh..tapin nie part kena lincah ckit cos
my Lizzy dah pass her Class 2B. Now she got Class 3 and Class 2B.
Me??? well im useless at this point cos i aint got nothing yet.
As long i have her heart and trust,its already enuff. Cos all this
is priceless and happen once in ur life.
Tapi...still haf to lincah2 pass my Class 2B. Phew...aim before April!!
Ah yeah...mit lizzy cos she haf to stay back late cos of some
Air-Con maintenance down at her STarbUcks there. STay and
lepak ard wif her colleague til ard 3am where we left off.
To Woodland that is. The 1st tyme i go hang out at her area
and i make a bad impression....hehe....
Fall asleep way to early,and rasa serba salah cos she haf to
stay up all alone and hear me snore. Sorry eh Lizz...Seriously
so the sorry. She got sumting to tell me dat nite and i fell asleep.
Can somebody punch me now??? I deserved it....
AnywaY Liz, dun tink too much k. Peace Ouch my dear!
See you later or maybe tomorow...wana go buy drug now.
-End Journal-
18th December 2005
To Lizzy,
now u have known how i felt towards you. Although u
may take time to think bout e sms msg i pass to you,just know
this. What me said is true. Mayb i sucks at doing action but i will
make adjustment to my self and change ur perspective point of
view towards love. Be attentive,dat i will start wif.
Have faith and believe. Forget the bad past and start anew.
And if u ever had a shoulder to cry on,i be there wif u.
Dun u cried alone....ever again.....
-Ur Knight in Rusty Armor-
Sir Azmi
15th December 2005
Btw Liz,macam mane azmi tak miss liz when dah almost 4 hari..5?
tak berjumpa. AnywAy gona meet her tonite (insya'allah klau masih
ada tenaga after my KB training) and mayb a Mocha Ramba wif dat
would certainly make my day.
Now for some pictures...dah lama tak post gmbr.......
Dats me and Aliza (aka Abg Ali)...dats wat i used to called her back then in
ma ITE day. (Year One) We were once fren...but now....haiz....i would
just look at my "mcm the typical mat nye looks" back then and u beside me
and compared to now....i wld just smiled. (tersengeh-sengeh...hehe)
Me and Liz ku.....
Now dats us rite now...any difference?? Yeah Big difference than the
day back in school then. Nie part lah aku bukak lagu NickelBack
Photograph Kuat2 pat PC aku.... (ignoring my screaming mother where
she ask me to keep it low.....)
Well....best eh this life? Yeah keep it real and gonna love her and this
world wont be so bad afterall after what ive did to many ppl.
Good things (i did less...) bad things (smpai tak dpt kira cishh....)
Changes that change me...You and the Army. Hehe.
K lah...nak go outz training...well Liz if u reading this...just wana
say, i never care so much about u before back then.
Now....well...things change..... =)
Signing off Journal....
-Sir Azmi-
11th December 2005
If someday,someone ask me a question that goes like this,
"So azmi,hows ur life being goin on rite now?"
The usual question would go something like,
"Macam semalam jugak,the same old shits!!" or
"biasa,nuting good ever happens to me nowadays.....bahhh"
but since that day i declare....u r my happiness....
"Well,life's good and im looking forward for every single
precious moment and time to spend wif ma loved one.
She wld be joy,my happiness,my cheerful moment and the
list go on. You too have to appreciate lil things in life u noe"
Dat is wat my answer will be...when this question come along.....
10th December was a blast anyway. Even thou i missed Zoukout-05.
Between an event that is organised Once a year and you which i
enjoy every single moment wif ,i choose u. There is always
another Zoukout year to go to...but nothing will be much better when
im wif you. Well yeah,so hows my 10th December???
Morning till the next morning. Its like almoz the whole day we went
out. But those nite wif u,holding u,cherish u (okay..this line
sounds kinky...hehe) aint a waste afterall. It aint a waste even if i haf
to sacrifices my enjoyment time and be wit u. If i haf being wif u
much earlier than that,u wld nvr haf done that stupid things u did.
But hey,i wont blame ya....i accept u of who u are and not judging u
by ur past mistakes. We all do make mistakes rite? RIGHT!!!
and ive learn that during my zaman mat2....
judging ppl is not a very good act. U haf to understand the person
inside...i wld like to do that wif u. To understand u and to love u.
U once said. Lets start a new chpater from now on....
But for me,i would life to start a new life wif u frm now on.
Haiz...wat a life....
-To Lizzy-
-Ur Knight in Rusty Armor
(Geezz..makin berat pulak armor karat ku ni...wateva lah...)
8th December 2005
Life seems simpler everytime i see u or just hear ur voice.
Relationship is so full of question ey? and those many many
question mark...but somehow an answer to all that can be
found when we r open more to each other rite? Right!!!
Thanks lizzy for telling me bout ur past.
Can i say it? "Im starting to miss You girl....
